Shady Clearing

Hmm.  I currently don’t know at all what to think.

Garet and I went out tonight.  Had some dinner and then went to see Eagle Eye.  It was really a good movie, in my opinion.  It was all a nice evening, really.  Of course, then we came home.

That was no big thing, until we got to talking.  I told him that he needed to cheer up, since pretty much any time he’s not out with friends he looks like he’s depressed as all hell, but when asked about it he always just responds that that’s just the way he looks.  From there he replied that it mostly has to do with the fact that we never do anything very often, of which I recited the short list of things there are to do in Evansville that I’m interested in.  Of course, that list didn’t include concerts at Boney Junes (or most concerts, for that matter) for a few reasons.  However, the largest of those reasons has to do with the fact that when we’re out with his friends, besides the few that he’s really close to, I can’t be his boyfriend.  I just have to be the friend that kinda just tags along to stuff he goes out to do.

I believe it’s understandable and easy to see why it would bother me, but in the end I feel I’ve upset him.  Can’t be sure, but I think I did.  He had a little notebook and said he was going out to his truck for a bit.

I’m honestly nervous as hell, but I guess I’ll just have to wait and see what he writes.

Ta.