Shady Clearing

So, yesterday was my 25th birthday.  25 years; one fourth of a century.  In terms of human lifespans 25 years is a good amount of time.  Of course, our lifespans are quite short.  Astronomically, 25 years is less than the blink of an eye.  It’s funny to imagine how something that feels like such a long time to us is practically worthless as far as the impossibly big picture goes.

Then again, we aren’t astronomical in scale, and the things that we accomplish usually don’t take quite that long so long as we don’t mention government and politics anyway.  That said, however, looking back at the time I’ve spent thus far on this tiny blue speck of dust, I don’t really feel like I’ve accomplished much.  I’ve yet to acquire work that I could consider a career, or even work that utilizes the specialties I have for that matter.  Relationships are fleeting and always as uncertain as the workings of the human mind.  That doesn’t prevent me from preferring to be in one, however.  Even thinking like this doesn’t change the fact that I too am human, complete with all the uncertainties and uniquities that being so entials.

I suppose all of this is mainly just rambling and circular thought, and we all do it at some point.  There is a solution to the questioning, so long as one accepts that even the solution cannot be for certain until after it has come to pass.  Admitting that, though, I do believe it’s probably time that I stood up and actually started putting forth some proper effort toward achieving my goals and making something of myself beyond simply being a nameless unkown.  How will I do it?  I honestly have no idea, but I’m going to figure it out!

Now that all the serious business is out of the way, we can move on to the fun stuff.  As I mentioned, yesterday — Friday the 13th — was my 25th birthday.  This year I managed to get days off for it though, and was determined to go out and have a good time.  My determination paid off, too.  Didn’t get a large group of people together; just a few, which is fine by me.  We ate out at Applebee’s, which could have been better, but it wasn’t bad for as busy as they were.  From there we left to go to Darren’s Pub, where we stayed for about 4 hours, listening to music, talking and drinking.  Between the beer at Applebee’s and the mixed drinks at the pub, I was rather toasted for a while, but I recovered near the end.  All in all it was a good time for all, I believe.

As far as gifts go, I received an armband strap for my Zune so I can more easily use it at the gym, a book about keeping things ‘interesting’ in a relationship, and a hookah!  It’s not a fancy one, but it’s good enough.  I had my first experience using a hookah when I went to visit Dragoon in Lexington, and I rather enjoyed it.  Apparently, I had later mentioned to my friend C.C. in passing that I wouldn’t mind having one, and the sneaky woman latched onto that and now I do have one.  I’ve already used it once, went went well, but more practice with it will yield even better results, so I’m totally ready to use it again.

Overall, this was probably one of the best birthday celebrations that I’ve had in a long time.  I certainly can’t complain, that’s for sure.

That’s it for now!  I’ll write more later.

SO!  After being reminded that I still needed to write about the last day of my trip, Sunday, I thought I should probably do so, and throw in the few days afterward as well.

Sunday was relaxing, overall.  Woke up around 7:30am (central time, but who cares?) and piddled around on the internet for a bit.  Later, the others found their way upstairs as well, and it became a calm, pleasant day with some chatter and viewing of videos.  Egg, sausage and cheese burittos for breakfast were also tasty.

(I suddenly feel like I’m writing this on twitter, for some reason)

Politics and other things were the topics of the day.  I didn’t provide much feedback throughout, but it was interesting to listen to others’ opinions.  As my time wrapped to a close, I tried to mentally catalogue the experiences of the weekend for reminiscing later, and finally after goodbyes and a hug, I left to return to Henderson at around 4pm (Again, central time).

The drive was uneventful and rather boring, though it didn’t seem to take as long as the drive there.  Upon arrival I unpacked and then took off to the gym to make use of the membership I’m paying for.

Monday!  Was really rather boring.  I actually didn’t do much of anything save for returning the car.  However, that evening as I laid down to attempt to nap before work, I found myself unable to sleep.  I was actually rather overwhelmed by this odd feeling that something terrible was about to happen and I couldn’t for the life of me figure out what it was.  Tuesday, and now Wednesday have gone by quite similarly.  As I gaze out to the fields and sky, it just feels like something is waiting to happen and when it does it’s not going to be pleasant or easy to recover from.

*shrugs*  Who knows.  Since I’m not psychic I’m not likely to find out anytime soon unless it actually happens, so I suppose I should really try not worrying about it.

Maybe, though, it’s an connected with my own personal feelings.  I just don’t feel like I belong here; as if I’m just sticking around because it’s easy and that I’m not actually doing anything useful.  I have an urge to just leave and not look back, and wherever I end up is where I am.  Who’s to say?

Anyway, plans for the evening are fairly set, with work in the offing should I decide I want to do so, among other things.  We’ll see where the wind blows!

(Thanks, by the way, for getting me into Doctor Who, guys.  Thanks a lot. :P)

Hrm, so first on the list is Computers Plus. They suck and need to burn in a fire. “Our Genius of Technology” would certainly have the fan you need to replace in your computer, right? Wrong. I wasted an hour of my life driving over there looking for a 70mm CPU fan, and they had every size fan you could possibly need… EXCEPT the one you need. Ugh…it’s just infuriating. So, I have to order the fan from Newegg and wait for it to get here. Granted, the price WITH shipping and handling on that is the same as it would have been just for the fan from Computers Plus, but the inconvenience of having to order it online after trying to not have to is just annoying. Die, Computers Plus, die. You are truly NOT “our genius of technology.”

Secondly, an old, frustrating feud on Aeon has finally found some closure. It’s uplifting, really, and kinda gives you a bit more faith in the human race as a result. This feud had been going on for years, literally, and finally today, it laid down and died. Hallelujah.

Thirdly, Harold has moved to Central City finally. It’s really not much further away than Evansville.

Finally, I’m going on a trip with my friend/co-worker next week. We’ll be going to Wisconsin. I’m excited about it because I’ve never been to Wisconsin and I think it’ll be fun. Doesn’t really matter why we’re going, to me. She’s going because her sister is getting married, and of course I’ll attend, but I don’t know them (I suppose I will after it’s over) and the marriage is just an event associated with the trip in my case.

I think that’s it for today. Toodles!

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Listening to: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Hump De Bump
via FoxyTunes

Mhmm.  I actually left the house and did stuff tonight.  It wasn’t necessarily the MOST exciting night of my life, but it was enjoyable all the same.

First went out with C.C. to Evansville to go shopping for her boyfriend’s birthday present… of course, to me that was a bit odd since I’ve never even met the guy.  However, we managed to decide on a gift card from Best Buy for $200. From there we went to Wal-Mart for a bit more shopping and then I took her home in time to run back over here to Evansville for a night out with Harold.  Granted, it wasn’t really a night out just with Harold.  We ended up having Chocolate Bear (Chris) coming along with us.  First we went out to Olive Garden for some pasta, which was really good.   As usual, their wine sucked badly, so of course I was glad they allow you to sample it first.  From there we went out to Aztar to hang out on the observation deck of the boat.  For some reason it was rather humid out, but it was still comfortable.  After there, we ended up at a cemetery for a bit of calm strolling, and then back to the hotel to chill for a bit.  Obviously, I’ve taken the time to post up this entry while I’m here, just to tell whomever about my night.  Which i would seem that I’m about done with, so I’m going to go and head across the bridge to home and my comfy bed.  Toodles!